life..

assalamualaikum..

first & foremost; to whom who has been asking.. yes,i've deleted my blog.. i was blog-hopping one night and i was awestruck reading all those well-written entries.. as compared to mine, it was nothing.. i am a bad writer.. i never seemed to find anything good to write.. but then, i always love writing, tho, as to date, my english is deteriorating.. sighhhhh..

i'll be going home tomorrow with abang to visit wan.. her condition is really2 critical now and i wish i can be by her side all the time.. at this point, i don't bother anymore even if my bosses are going to kick my ass outta the office, i am still going back tomorrow.. and to those who are reading this, please2 pray for my wan.. :(

i'm doing some minor adjustments with my life now.. after having that conversation with angah last wiken, i've made up my mind to pursue my master degree this coming november.. ive been putting my dream on hold for so long due to sponsorship problems but now, since angah told me that i can apply from mara as wut she did, therefore, one problem settled.. now, it's just a matter of choosing the right uni and deciding on what research shud i be doing.. uniten is of course my first choice but then, mara doesnt seem to support ipts (dang..!) and i'm left with 2 options ukm or um.. sighhhh..

my ptd interview last wik was rather ok.. i answered almost all the theory questions correctly; majlis raja2, pilihan raya,asean, etc.. but being a mediocre malaysian and being oblivious to almost every gomen thingy, therefore i had no choice but gave a blank look when being asked about policies and what not.. 'pernah dgr tentang sistem delivery?'..*blank* 'maaf'..' 'pernah berurusan dgn gomen?' *senyum* 'pernah, buat roadtax kt jpj, etc'.. 'haa..itulah diye'..*blank*'u mean, the front-line service?' 'yes, sistem delivery adalah cara penyampaian gomen kpd rakyat' *senyum*'sorry, i dont quite understand the term' (wth!) .. 'kerje awak skrg sesuai btul dgn degree awak, kenape nk apply ptd?' *senyum* 'because i believe werking with government can provide both stability & security" (wth!!) 'ni utk personal reason ni.. u baru 24 dh fikir pasal retirement?' and, endless questions from the interviewers with stupid answers from the interviewee.. sighhhhhhhh.. it's not like i want to be a ptd but i hate it when i couldnt give my very best in sumthing i do.. i hate being a fool..