skeptical..

well, i'm getting better at ditching werk now.. perhaps i can be nominated as the best one, if there is such award.. heh.. i slept at the library yesterday rite after lunch until someone woke me up at 5.25pm.. and today, i had the chance to have lunch with my dear aidelia at great eastern mall, ampang.. yay! yay! werking in shah alam & lunching2 in ampang.. =).. how does that sound to u..?! and coming late & getting back early is definitely the 'in' style now..! way to go idya.. clap..clap.. yes, i'm becoming less & less productive lately.. and i'm beginning to question my existence in the office.. infact, i'm searching for an answer why i shud come at the first place.. isnt it better to fool around the house rather than cracking my head thinking wut kinda show shud i put up to make believe i'm actually busy doing sumthing.. !?!! ok.. ok.. if getting paid for nothing sounds splendid to u, come over, i would be more than happy to trade place with u.. really.. i'm talking serious shit here.. sighhhhhh.. i dont think i can survive any more days here.. :(..

watched cinta pertama yesterday nite.. a much anticipated muvi but it failed to impress me.. perhaps because i was busy eating durian,i din have time to pay any attention to it.. but then, at certain point, i felt so connected to the storyline.. u know, mcm u really2 love someone but then u r not meant to be and then u fall in love with someone else.. u thot he's the one but at the end of the day, he's nothing but just a substitute of the person u really2 love.. how complicated things can be..?! and listening to one of the soundtrack 'cinta pertama (sunny), demmitt.. cant help but feeling sangat la sedih kn of course.. with the news shazreen told me today.. babe,i dont think i can do that.. :(.. it's too late, seriously.. i give up, long long time ago.. u know, when u want someone so bad and knowing u dont even have a slightest chance, its way better for u to back off.. rather than hurting ur own self.. and i already stop wishing for a miracle to happen.. he's never mine to keep.. period!

life is not a bed of roses, but even if it is, u still have to bear the consequences of getting hurt by the thorns, isn't it..?

i'm fat.. i'm ugly.. i'm stupid.. an eye sore.. a pain in the ass.. i'm good for nothing! fcuk!